Mostly sketches. Occasionally a painting. Nothing political other than caricatures reinforcing the truism "Politics is Show Business for Ugly People".
Thursday, April 03, 2014
Sayonara San Diego after 23 years
Well as of today the news received that the contract opportunities I had been waiting on fell through or at least were NOT what I was being told for the last 9 months. But in truth, I'm out of time and OUT of money or about to be. So as of the beginning of May I will be relocating to my parents home in Sacramento. I had planned this back in 2010 but luck had it lots of freelance work came my way and kept me in SD which led to the full time gig I lost last summer with the hopes of follow on work. I should have bailed then. I'm highly depressed by all this and the decision that I have to do this. But to tell the truth. Without a job, being here is a pipe dream as I no longer have the adequate skill set to be competitive in the shrinking market here. The Crash of 08 did no one any favors in the job market. Well at 52 and being in this shape is just the most vile thing I can feel right now. But what's worst is all that I have come to hold as important for the many decades of my life really has no value now. I have always been self conscious about my art or even having better opportunities to advance it in my youth, let alone my adulthood. I've wasted a lot of years chasing things or ideals that were a lie or just plain bullshit. I gave myself to the "MAN's" system and it ate me up little by little over the last 30 years. I'm burned out and my old dreams seems so far away now. I have fewer years ahead of me than behind. Lots of you guys have and are still doing some amazing things. I really respect and admire that, I just wished I could find the magic in me again, maybe I will. So with this relocation I will consider it a sabbatical of sorts, a reinvention perhaps. I will be online still (as I get there and set up). I will be doing lots of EBay auctions to generate revenue, maybe a freelance job or two as well. Who knows. I will also be taking care of my ailing parents as well. My Mom has been diagnosed with Alzheimers and my Dad is just getting worst. As much as they've caused me great pain over the good years of my life I have to go and offer my support of them in their final years. So here's to my SD time, Don't want to go and I don't know what the future will bring me now but regardless I have to go.