I had a search I regularly did for the woman that evicted me a year and 7 months ago.
She is now dead. She has no more property and I need to get on with life, the 10 or so creative years I may have.
I'll never get back all the pleasure I gave her, being crushed like a bug.
But I can live a better life that equalizes that low.
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Yes Ellis, but I hope you have a lot more than 10 creative years left (and me, us being the same age and all). Let's be creative until we're 100. Think "Clint Eastwood". I just got up and brought up TAG about two minutes before you posted.
Sorry, but when Society as it is brainwashes you to be a cog in their machine. "Get a job", "pay the bills", and all the non worthwhile things it pigeonholes you in with. Giving years to their endeavors and not yours. When you finally wake up you find you've been discarded and not as much time on the books as you once did. I know exactly what your feeling. And health slowly fails too regardless of the effort, Time is a predator with teeth. It sucks. Now that I am where I am, It's like nothing that happened before was real yet the time and riches has been spent. I have no intention of giving the amount of time or effort to be enslaved to an employer at this point. But that's the trap isn't it? Oh what to do.
I've sent her an email
The subject line is PING
and the letter body is PING
If I get an answer I'll be disappointed.
Time passing and killing us all is good Jim. It makes you think.
Tom. Clint Eastwood is a great role model for staying in the game.
Elz. Man, as a friend and on yr behalf, it is painful to hear about that whole episode again. Now that she is dead, hopefully some of the angst can dissipate.
As you guys state, a great lesson in how fleeting this mortal passage can be....
Jimmy, you have a good point. It's up to us to find our own meaning, purpose, reason to live, etc. Some can find it outside of their 9-5...but in our field, where artists have become dime-a-dozen, it's very hard to even make a living anymore. And is it even the money that makes a job "good"?
But like Elz said, being alive should be a reward in itself. We've all lost friends and colleagues much younger than we are now. I seriously try to appreciate that everyday.
p.s....of course my life is very cushy now so I probably should just keep my comments to myself on topics like this...but I have been there--lost nearly everything as an adult and lived in a warehouse (without a shower) for more than a year. Paid my rent with my credit card and hoped I could hold out. That I did was more luck and the grace o' God than talent or hard work....
I think a number of us are looking for what our 'second act' is going to be. I've been giving this a lot of thought lately... its why I feel compelled to do the convention thing even though it's not bringing in a lot of dough as of yet. I'm learning stuff every time I do it, hopefully making more money AND doing work that I love and that I will continue to love for many years hence. I'm fortunate enough to still have a day job that I enjoy, but we all know how fleeting that can be, so like you guys I'm wanting to see what I can do for myself when the time comes that I'm too old to be working in games.
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